History II
Math I
GP I
GP II
Biology II
Chemistry III
History I
Math II
Chemistry II
Biology III
Chemistry I
Biology I

AHHHHHHH. All you people who have finished, I'll... claw you. Of course not -smiles sweetly- From the day we got our timetables, I remember being horrified by how bio mcq was 10 days after my second last paper. It doesn't really help that some have already ended -claws the air- Haha I wonder if having the desire to flail your arms frantically in the air is a sign of insanity. It wasn't too long ago that I was convinced that if I sat on the porch of a mental institute, they'd admit me heh heh heh.

Over the past few weeks, I've grown to love spontaneity. That definitely wasn't me, but now that's who I am (guess the song!) aha. I haven't figured out if I was forced to adapt to that, or I've been unconsciously changing, but I'm loving it nonetheless (: when there's company to sit around and talk all day, why did I even fear getting bored after 'A's?

Quote of the day:
If I was illiterate and I read that, I won't understand anything!

It was a pretty day, and I'm not expecting anything less from tomorrow (:

Accomplishment of the day: Music&lyrics! Have I ever mentioned that I'll miss this so much when it's over? Okay awight I better focus on learning about my favourite protein product heh heh heh.

Tomorrow, tomorrow!

History II
Math I
GP I
GP II
Biology II
Chemistry III
History I
Math II
Chemistry II + Legally Blonde 2 + Love Actually + Definitely Maybe
Biology III
Chemistry I
Biology I

Fastforward, pleeeaaase. Having so many glances at how the end is like isn't good at all, to think there's still going to be a THIRD mock "After 'A's" next Monday. No, the sheep is not okay.

In 5 days, 8 papers have been completed, of which 3 subjects are down, and the core papers of the other 2 have too been done with.

History II
Math I
GP I
GP II
Biology II
Chemistry III
History I
Math II
Chemistry II
Biology III
Chemistry I
Biology I

Don't be envious of my timetable, the past week was h-e-l-l heh. All the best, you econs/physics people!

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Word of the day: surreal

Indeed the more you study, the more you realise you don't know. That's not to say that not studying is better, duh. Sigh. The past week was far from how I conceived The Week Before As to be, but it was unexpectedly pleasant to say the least (: May the coming weeks be... a positive experience for all of us. To quote Christopher Robin in a dialogue with Pooh: you are braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. GO GO FIGHT FIGHT!

It's been four Fridays since what I thought was the last Friday. What a joke.

Even now, I'm so amazed
It's like a dream, It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain
And somethings are the way they are
And words just can't explain
'Cause I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky, around the world
You've given me all you have and more
And no one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh, I, I never saw blue like that before

For some reason, I distinctly remember the first time I heard this song. It was in bio class in sec3, where the teacher showed us more "inspirational" slides than content slides hahaha. Those were the days.

Time to sleep. It was a long day, with long lessons and long lift rides, amongst others -sputters- goodnight. Have a nice weekend trick-or-treating or studying heh heh heh.

I think I'll miss studying when the As are over. Haha come post-As, you don't have to remind me that I ever said this. I won't miss jabbing the calculator harder in hopes of getting a correct answer for P&C, but you know what I mean. It's the whole sense of "we're all in this together" hahahaha call me a sadist, talk to my hand (I learned this yesterday). I particularly like how now is the best time to know people, and I like my second second home (:

X: I'm pretty sure that any word in the dictionary, when said with the right emotions, can sound like a bad word
Y: (very coarsely) GRAPHIC CALCULATOR

Hahahahah p-h-a-i-l. I need to train myself to sleep early AND wake up early once again. Sleeping early isn't a problem, surviving on <9hrs of sleep is, ugh. My stomach hasn't been too pleased since Monday's buffet, so my whole body system seems a bit off tangent right now. Oh well. Goodnight.

All my troubles seemed so far away. Aha yesterday was the day to play! I'm glad that we were given another chance at the "last day of school" business - it seems to be our third "last day" - yesterday was definitely the best. If I was any less sane, I may not be living with so much regret today HEH, but that's another story altogether. A long story that lasts almost two years HAHA. Even with farewell assembly, a single goodbye won't put an end to all the "hello"s we've said, so no worries. In my mind your smile will stay, 'cause you'll always have a space in my heart like I promised on the very first day. Those people who need to be forgotten will soon be erased from my memory, so all that I'll remember would be fond memories. My mind works like that somehow. Is it just me? Even the bad memories will make me smile somehow. Call it the benefit of hindsight, maybe. Some times, just some times, I scare myself with the clarity at which I remember some little details (it's a pity I can't remember econdevt stats in the same manner, and I wonder why). I better keep the rest of my incoherent ramblings away from the public domain haha.

After school was awesome too. From going swooning at cuteness, to freezing at bk, to dinner with my shell-less prawns, followed by bumming about in a corner before our late night entertainment, right till running for the last train (and losing another race home again), thank you for making yesterday particularly memorable (: Enough has been said for now. I've somewhat lost my ability to express myself fully in words again, so they can just remain etched in my head for as long as they last.

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed, sing like a bird dizzy in my head, spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night. You make me dance like a food, forget how to breathe, shine like gold, buzz like a bee, just the thought of you can drive me wild. Oh, you make me smile (:

Here's one big goodbye, and hopefully many more hellos to come. Life lies before us, here's luck to the start.

It's Thursday again. Thursdays always had a special meaning because it was one Thursday (right after CT2) that we were rambling on about how fast time went by/is going by. The next Thursday, we'll remember how the previous Thursday was spent talking about the next Thursday. Haha it's okay if you don't get it. Believe it or not we actually managed to do so for 7 Thursdays >< I have to see things in patterns. We're not going to count Thursdays anymore because the number is frightfully small. (I bet I subconsciously will anyway) In spite of all that talk about living in the "now", one can't help but wonder eh?

In other news, my decision has finally be made. A few promptings from various people, much thought on my part, and I think I'm going to step on that path towards self-destruction hahaha. You win some, you lose some. That said, I'm still keeping my options open. It's a bit too premature to decide anyway, so we'll see.

The highlight of the past weekday nights have been rushing to the canteen beforeeee 6.30pm. Surprise of the century! We learn, to go down earlier haha. Tip of the day: make your way to the canteen by 6.15pm, sit at a table facing the front and try not to look desperate. All you queue-cutters: I'm glaring at you!! One additional person here and there makes all the difference in the world to those who are diligently queueing behind, don't you think? Oh right, you've probably never queued behind before. Don't even talk to me about "survival instincts" hahahahahahaha.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll love you tomorrow, it's only a day away.

Today's date is 11/10/09, fascinating huh.

It's the fifth Sunday studying out, and I must say that it was a rather productive day today. That is, until my brain reached saturation point heh heh. I haven't quite figured out if it's good or not that I can't study at home, because the distractions are aplenty - the computer, the bed, and everything that's in the kitchen - but whatever works works. The least I can say is that the company makes all the difference in the world (: I think I finally comprehend how the period of intensive studying for "A"s can be so positively memorable for some aha. Nonetheless, I'm patiently counting down to the day that I can gallivant with completely no guilt. Till then, go go fight fight!

Your love is deeper than the deepest oceans, higher than the highest mountains, wider than the skies (:

I couldn't be any more glad that the "last day of school" is finally over. I speak for myself, and several others I think. I'm truly glad that it's over. The same thoughts I had on 3rd April last year remain. Talk about foresight huh. Then, I couldn't believe I had to, I hated living through it, and I'm so glad that all the memories can be shelved away. Maybe some time off would do wonders, but I'm not even pining my hopes on that. Let those that have eyes see and those that have ears hear.

On to happier things, TGIF. If not for the honourable company that could speak sense into me again, I would have curled up and rolled in the sand till I crashed into a cactus. Haha okay ignore that. See, that's the importance of fellowship. Something some people will never understand I suppose. But go your merry way nonetheless. I've never quite been one who would fight for something. If there's a bone of contention, I'll gladly retreat, because I'm usually convicted in my belief anyway so I don't see a need to fight it out. Makes sense? Now remind me how I strayed back to this topic ugh.

It's funny how we ended up returning to the shell - a place where walls have been built up, and other barriers torn down. A place where I could safely enjoy the view, amongst other crazy endeavours. Don't get me wrong, I'll miss it. Just unlike the way it is for the general population.

Word of the day: bittersweet.

So long, farewell!

I still remember what you said years ago. I'm highly tempted to spread the word, but it seems to sacred to be let out of my mouth. You know, like it's safe within your mouth.

Having had one day of "school" on Friday, the weekend was much needed omg. Waking up before the sun rises and having to sit through 1hr blocks is beyond me. Let's not talk about doing more prelim papers for now D: Fear is a very real thing. Sigh. But thank God for wisdom and favour, for good company, for putting me at the right place at the right time to be with the right people. Aye.

The airport is awash with real emotion. Lovers are saying goodbye and being reunited. Families are separating and coming back together. There are lots of hugs and laughter and tears. The departure gate is pretty interesting but the arrivals hall is even better, because you can't do it in your own time at arrivals. You can't decide when it's time to say hello in quite the same way you that you can decide to say goodbye. Hello just happens. The people anxiously waiting for someone don't know when that face is suddenly going to appear before them, slowly pushing a trolley, smiling through the jet lag, ready for a kiss and a cuddle, ready to begin again.

Are you ready to begin again? We've no choice but to walk it out, with a cheerful endurance of course. Cheers.

The past seven days have been quite a blast. Every single day was well spent away from books heh.

( Live it. )

Tomorrow, it's a going to be a huge welcome back to Reality, sans the fanfare.

The highly anticipated post-prelims came with not much of a bang. If I wasn't already suffering from a severe lack of sleep (my fault, I know), some idiot had to remind us that whatever celebrations today were actually for nothing, because the "A"s are just lurking round the bend. Can you see my eyes rolling? Now I can look into my brain and the back of my head 0.o That reminder was true, but unnecessary. Are you thinking what I'm thinking? It's the ugly truth hohoho. I'd choose Mike > Colin anytime ahaha go watch it for yourself, no regrets I promise.

Quote of the day: What the hell was that? And why the hell do I want to do it again?

Goodnight! I'm looking forward to getting 8hrs of sleep daily all over again heh heh.

GP History(II) Math(I) Biology(II) Chemistry(III) History(I)
Math(II) Chemistry(II) Biology(III) Chemistry(I) Biology(I)

The last-paper-syndrome can be quite lethally infectious, as you can tell from how many people are online and not studying tonight. Again, I think I've reached an end of myself hohoho. Now is when reality sets in, which is the true test really. I would give today the poorest rating out of the past 7 days of papers. Never have I felt like rolling in the floor so badly before hohoho. For some reason, I'm thinking of the five stages of grief right now - I probably zoomed through all in the today. First, denial. Maybe it's just my imagination that the paper is hard. Then "anger", that I didn't manage to secure all the marks I needed to make up for paper 3. Then came the bargaining - hey everyone had a problem with time. Depression: phail omg. Acceptance finally set in after talking sense into myself that this is the prelims blahblahblah. Joy to the world.

Nonetheless, it's just prelims, say what you want. Don't lose track of the real goal. Always, always and forever! And when my world is falling down, in You I will be found (:

Partial liberation feels oh-so-good. No more shuffling of feet from one destination to another, but there's now some time to allocate to enjoy a nice long lunch, fine dessert, a great book, and greater company. This is life - the sherry-way.

For the fun of it,
GP History(II) Math(I) Biology(II) Chemistry(III) History(I)
Math(II) Chemistry(II) Biology(III) Chemistry(I) Biology (I)

Prelims haven't been as bad as what people initially made them out to be. I know, let the results do the talking hah. Save for chem which was rather horrific, the rest were fine. Not fine fine, but okay fine. I can probably pinpoint exactly why it is so heehee.

She was a pretty little gosling, and a gay young gosling he
"I love you", she said so dearly
"And I love you too", said he
"But alas we must part", he whispered, "I'm off to a world so wide."

I need to stop digging my own grave. Let those that have eyes see. Ehhhhh go us!

When I'm here to post at such a frequency (as compared to the past few months), something's amiss. Today was one of the days where I wondered WHY I'm studying. Indeed, let's quit school and set up our own cafe. 84 days -breaths- "The unexamined life is not worth living." You think?! Ahaha. 

It's where the stars line up
It's where the oceans touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home

Tomorrow will be a better day.

You took a mystery and made me want it
You got a pedestal and put me on it
You made me love you out of feeling nothing
Something that you do
And I was there and not dancing with anyone
You took a little, then you took me over
You set your mark on stealing my heart away
Crying, trying, anything for you

In two months, "A" levels will be tomorrow. What a thought. The end is near - press on towards the goal!

Earth to Sherry! More tomorrow when I'm sensible again.

Oh please, not now.